Saranghae....

Balqis....! Dier pasti akan tegur kt dgn panggilan nie. Everytime terserempak ngan dier, dier pasti akan tegur kt dulu dengan memanggil nama kt. Kt lak yg brasa segan selalunya end up dengan hanya memberi senyuman kmudian wat x layan... ( teruknyr kt... ). Nobody knows how much I want to call out his name but to shy to do it... T_T
Kt ingat lagi masa 1st time dier tegur kt. Masa tu kt working under technical abc n 1 malam di foyer, kt mengalami masalah ngan laptop dimana speaker dier x nak kuarkn suara... He tried to help tp kt dgn sombongnya x layan dier... rasa bersalah sgt stiap kali tringat peristiwa tu... huhu~  Sowie~ "-_-
But, smenjak dier tegur kt smula masa hari pendaftarn sem 1 tahun 2 dulu, kt smakin sukakan dier. Masa tu dier tegur "Balqis, knapa awk suka senyum?" n then kt planning utk mnjwb sbb mmg kt suka senyum tp 4 some reason kt x mampu brkata bgitu n end up saying "kalo x senyum nnt org ingat sombong.."
Masa kem induksi pulak dier sngaja usik kt kata "pasir sapela tu tumpah" n then kt pandang lps2 dier ckp "pandang saja...". Jahat btulla.... agak geram disitu tp dsbbkan dier slalu tegur kt lah mmbuatkan kt smakin drawn to him. d way he smiles whenever he sees me n then when he didn't smile kt rasa takot sgt... Kt akan try wat dier senyum smula ngan mmberi senyuman lps2 main kelip2 mata.... it works as far as I notice it.
Antara sume teguran yg diberi, kt paling sukakan ungkapan nie, "Balqis, naper kamu comel sgt malam nie??!". Kt sgt2 suka n bahagia bila dier berkata bgitu tp of course la kna control.... x ley tunjuk btapa gatalnyr kt nie... Tp, apa yg mmbuatkn kt happy ialah dier actually prasan kt nie comey! ahakss... Suka2... If only I huv d gut 2 tell him "Saranghae-o~" (I love u)  ^_^ 

I'm confuse.....

Why is it so hard to admit dat ur liking som1?? I already realize it long ago dat i might, probably, seems like i've been looking over aka mengusha dis 1 guy, a senior from my college KAB. At 1st, i try to ignore it but i actually always hoping dat i might see him whenever i went 2 d foyer 4 my duty bsmm or meeting or even when i go to d cafe. I still remember about our 1st encountered. i was having problems wif d laptop, not knowing how 2 project the sound from d laptop through d speaker n he tried to help but i kinda dismiss him, not paying attention. I really regret it whenever i think about him. Later, i saw him singing in a nasyid band for ABC's closing ceremony. He have a really nice voice n also quite a handsome face too.... I really don't understand why i didn't realize it b4. After dat, i found out dat he befriended wif my aka leader (sukan) n my dearest felo (spkg) n he even speak to me first asking me why i always smiling??? i never realize dat he realize dat... Since then, whenever he sees me he will always smile at me so happily n sweetly.. He even greet me 1st sometimes. I always wanted to have a normal, long conversation wif him but i can never look him in d eye n i always loss of words whenever i'm standing near to him. I only able to smile 'normally' since dats d best possible natural way dat i'm good at.
What should i do? I can't like him, can i? I mean, he must already have a gf.
Just now, he promptly asked me to smile n i automatically smile for him. I even went back to d foyer more than a couple of times coz i wish to take a glimpse of him. Because i didn't talk to him instead pretending dat i don't even notice his presence really make me feel uneasy. I can't even do my lab report rite now which is why i'm writing dis blog!
Aaargghh.... Now is not d time to fall in love... Now is d time to concentrate on my studies...
Ohh... please god, give me d courage to actually take d 1st step in getting to know him better... please make him a single n available man n let me take d chance in love for a second time.. please let him be d one for me coz i don't want to get heartbroken again... Not again....

BeRaya D RumaH BaRu

PerSiapAn RaYa : ~

Aktiviti 2 hari sebelum Raya

Aktiviti di Malam Raya

huhu~ Keluargaku rock yo~ Sume org sibuk memasak, menghias rumah sempena nak sambut raya esok harinya tp ktorg spend malam raya dengan bermain tenis yo... Kt jew baik, sibuk wat kek... huhu~

( hakikatnyer kt pown join main soon after.... hehe )

Aktiviti Pada Hari Pertama Raya

Org 'tue2' sume dok makan n bergaul mesra antara satu sama lain, tp ktorg yg lebih 'mude' merapatkan silaturrahim melalui tenis! hwahwahwa.... kt sorg jew gurl yg main tenis, sume sedara sepupu yg lain laki2... "-_-

Selesai main tenis trus tukar baju n berlawa2 skit sbb sesi bergambar!!! kehkehkeh...

BERAYA BERSAMA MEMBER2 SBS.....

Conoknyr Raya Tahun nie.... wee~ hahahaha.... Luv U All.....!

Oh my 30 hinggit~

huhuhuhu..... isk..isk
Hatiku amat sedih, terkenangkan peristiwa d petang hari
Sedangku seronok berjalan2, berdua dgn kkasih hatiku Mai ( kekasih? Les pe?? )
Membeli barang2 utk top up stok mknn dlm bilikku, x kusangka terlupa pula hendak membeli gas (x de gas camner nak masak?? pandai btulla....)
Tetapi, itu bukan apa yg inginku bincangkan di sini... Apa yg sebenarnya terbuku di dalam hati ini adalah....
Majlis Perbandaran Kajang Kejam!!!!! Manalah kt nak tau parking kat kajang tu kna byr parking... x prasan pown mesin syiling parking dier tu... nampak warna biru ingatkn public phone. Bile da berjalan n nak pulang ke kampus ksayangan tiba2 Mai pandang smacam jew kat cermin windshield kt tu... Kt pown pelik tgk dier, pe benda la yg minah nie wat tenung kat cermin kete ku yg kkotoran nie??? Rupa2nyr, terselitlah satu resit saman nie sbb gagal mmpamerkan tiket parking... Hampeh btulla....
Yg paling x puas hati, kna byr RM30! sbb gagal byr parking yg 30 sen tu... 10X ganda tu~ Mana adil.... Mak kt br jew bg kt duit tu utk dbuat belanja buka pose da kna guna buat byr saman parking lak.... Cam *tutt* jew.... Sakit hati ssangat... Akak yg handle bayaran tu lak muka x de prasan after kt telah mluahkan rasa sedih ddalam hati ini, menceritakan kisah perit kna byr 3o hinggit smata2 kerna kt x tau kna byr parking, dier lak remain profesional wat keje dier x pandang langsung.... Kecewanyr~
Habis mlayang 30 inggit sia2 cam tu jew.... Next time gi kajang naik bas jer! x nak drive da.....!!!

          Bukti resit saman.... ( my 1st saman... hwahwahwa )