Why is it so hard to admit dat ur liking som1?? I already realize it long ago dat i might, probably, seems like i've been looking over aka mengusha dis 1 guy, a senior from my college KAB. At 1st, i try to ignore it but i actually always hoping dat i might see him whenever i went 2 d foyer 4 my duty bsmm or meeting or even when i go to d cafe. I still remember about our 1st encountered. i was having problems wif d laptop, not knowing how 2 project the sound from d laptop through d speaker n he tried to help but i kinda dismiss him, not paying attention. I really regret it whenever i think about him. Later, i saw him singing in a nasyid band for ABC's closing ceremony. He have a really nice voice n also quite a handsome face too.... I really don't understand why i didn't realize it b4. After dat, i found out dat he befriended wif my aka leader (sukan) n my dearest felo (spkg) n he even speak to me first asking me why i always smiling??? i never realize dat he realize dat... Since then, whenever he sees me he will always smile at me so happily n sweetly.. He even greet me 1st sometimes. I always wanted to have a normal, long conversation wif him but i can never look him in d eye n i always loss of words whenever i'm standing near to him. I only able to smile 'normally' since dats d best possible natural way dat i'm good at.
What should i do? I can't like him, can i? I mean, he must already have a gf.
Just now, he promptly asked me to smile n i automatically smile for him. I even went back to d foyer more than a couple of times coz i wish to take a glimpse of him. Because i didn't talk to him instead pretending dat i don't even notice his presence really make me feel uneasy. I can't even do my lab report rite now which is why i'm writing dis blog!
Aaargghh.... Now is not d time to fall in love... Now is d time to concentrate on my studies...
Ohh... please god, give me d courage to actually take d 1st step in getting to know him better... please make him a single n available man n let me take d chance in love for a second time.. please let him be d one for me coz i don't want to get heartbroken again... Not again....
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